Toeksie

Okay so this probably won’t be the easiest post to write, can’t say I’m all that excited about this one but thought it was about time that I write a little something about Toeksie my female Sun Conure. She came into my life two years ago somewhat unexpectedly. January 28th, 2013 I went to a local pet store to kill some time while waiting for a friend, I wasn’t looking to buy…well, anything really. I already scheduled an appointment with a local breeder to go see her sun conure babies, I didn’t expect to find the most adorable sun conure babies at the pet store! I saw Toeksie and that was it, done deal. I fell in love with that sweet little face the moment I laid eyes on her.

I sure learned a lot from her, I thought I knew enough about birds to be okay but as soon as I got her home I completely forgot about everything I read online. I had so much to learn and I was so lucky to have such a patient teacher, she had the softest, sweetest heart of any bird I have ever met. I had to seriously screw up to get her to bite me.

Taking a nap after breakfast.

We were inseparable in no time, since I stayed home most of the time she was only ever in her cage to sleep or to eat breakfast (dinner was always with me). Her favorite meal was cooked oatmeal, she absolutely loved it. It was so bad that I couldn’t prepare it in front of her because she wouldn’t think twice about diving into a boiling hot bowl, which luckily never happened. She also had this thing about green apples, no matter how hard I tried she would not go near a red or yellow apple. I regularly tried to mix a couple of yellow apples in with the green ones but as soon as she tasted the sweetness from the yellow ones, no way.
She was always so easy to train, I used to complain about her pickiness regarding the treats. One day she likes sunflower seeds, the next day they apparently tasted like dirt. But she was awesome, her bests were the “kiss” and “wave”, she would even perform for my then two year old cousin.

She filled such a big void in my life.
February 4th I took a bunch of pictures of her for the BirdTricks Valentines day competiton (before I became a blogger), she did so good! She looked so beautiful and I wanted to show her off to everyone. There were so many awesome pics entered though and unfortunately we didn’t win but we had so much fun with our little photoshoot!

Toeksie’s valentines day photo.

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10 Days later, on the 14th she had to be rushed to the vet’s office due to a bad bacterial infection. She died early the next morning.
When something like this happens you start thinking back, searching for possible signs that you might have missed. You over-analyses every detail. Words cannot express the amount of guilt I still carry with me, I’m not even sure how I managed to finish this post. Took a long time for me to even grasp the fact that she won’t be there when I wake up in the morning or screaming for me when I get home. I remember a couple times when I got home and started worrying about her being so quiet only to be confronted by the painful reality.

A happy memory.

Love your fids as much as you possibly can. Now if you’d excuse me, I have to find another box of Kleenex and hug my animals. <3